Continuation~

hmmm... so the new guy came. Ed. we flirted... he's charming and nice...
sigh. i think the problem is me. i'm not ready to commit myself to anyone yet. whenever i think about new relationship, i will instantly remember what happened to my last one. I dumped him. the reason? I'm bored. BORED, among all other possible existing reasons.

see? i dont wanna make a new victim out of my insecurities of special relationship.

shoot me dead. i'm a bit too pessimistic about this kinda thing. i dont want to open my heart fully to that new guy, because i dont wanna be hurt. and i dont want him to be hurt if he'd really be involved in this matter.

how then? Ed is a really good guy and it's a waste if i just let him go like that. He reveals the flirtatious side of me, which i found quite tempting. (that sounds wrong. ah well~ hahah) fantasizing about being with a much older guy intrigues me a lot cuz it means CHALLENGE. Me, and my high school charm... tsk tsk tsk.

But I'm afraid that he's just a mere sweet talker. I just have to dig more infos. I'm the walking tabloid mag, man. See if I can place my trust onto this guy's shoulders.