Matters of heart

hmm... how do I start this.

let's call that guy Daniel. I've been liking him since.... well, since I knew him a month ago. Not only cuz he's good looking, he has this sweet side - protective, likes kids, caring, all a good guy should be.

but that's it. i'm not capable of liking him cuz I know if i do, i'll be the one who hurts the most in the end. I guess I shoul learn how to accept rejection huh? Admirations from other people are my usual cup of tea, and almost every guy that I hit, I would hit the bull's eye.

Okay, that sounds arrogant, but it's true. Maybe God is trying to teach me something. that looks are not the ultimate possession that I should prioritize on.

but goodness... my heart hurts. an attractive gurl popped out of nowhere and started to hit on Daniel, which I'm sure that Daniel (somehow) is attracted to her.
My heart aches but I've nothing left to do but just watch. and watch what happens next.